During the week, Lady A, was hurt on her lips by babyJ, I did not really know how bad it was but i heard her cry and thought it was just them having a disagreement. Some minutes later, they came downstairs and Lady A was with an umbrella, I was trying to tease her but she wouldn’t bulge and kept saying “mummy don’t come here, the more I tried to come, the more she covered herself with the umbrella…I knew something had gone wrong, so i came closer and it was a fight to let go of the umbrella, then i saw her lips were bleeding and she started crying, firmly holding unto the umbrella, saying  “no mummy, don’t come here” I wanted to grab her to stop the bleeding and hold her tight to let her know everything was going to be fine, but she kept crying and refusing, so I sat down, explained to her from a distance and after some cajoling, I grabbed her, rocked her and stopped the bleeding, while rubbing her back and giving her her favourite drink. She instantly felt better. Two  days later, I felt God spoke to me through that, I realized lately, I have been running from God because i felt he wasn’t answering my prayers as i thought he should, so I speak with him hurriedly, check my phone more than his word, even when I feel a nudge to pray, I just get myself busy with other things because sometimes, i am not just ready to get emotional with Him, I don’t want to drop my burden at his feet and if my day or week is going bad, i really don’t feel like sharing with him, i just want to go on and move with the day as it comes, because even though I believe he can do everything,I would rather just let him do what he will, while I nurse my hurt and pain, knowing that I would be fine eventually. Sometimes, we all act like my daughter, trying to hide our hurt from God, feeling that we would be fine eventually, we cover ourselves with the ‘umbrella’ protecting our heart because we are not sure if he would answer this prayer or disappoint us, and we say “don’t come close, I know you are great and everything but i would be fine eventually” God wants to grab you, he wants to hold you, he wants to calm you down and take this load off. yes you might be fine eventually but he would make you fine, comforted, feel cared for, loved, heard Immediately and he would definitely answer your prayers in a way that would work for your good in the end. What are you waiting for? You can be vulnerable wit your father, he wants to help you, he wants to be there for you. Be vulnerable, let him heal you.
Obehi Agbonifo